i dissapeared and everything changed.

starting work today.
tacoma mall jamba juice.
meh. at least im movng back to portland.

this is really hard for me.
tears are swelling up my eyes.
my heart is growing heavier by the second.

ill miss you grandma pat. youll always be my hotty.

i need to get to portland.
i need to be with amanda kim.

Current Mood: heart broken

everyone that i love most is 147 miles away from me. its been 4 months and my mind hasnt changed. i want to go home. "home is where the heart is" and as cliche as it sounds, my heart stayed south. i have no idea why i made THIS choice. why couldnt i get the help i needed in portland? why did i have to run away and try and fix it all with a move to puyallup. that never works. running never works. i like to believe that everything happens for a reason, but in this case i dont believe that at all.

i am just lonely.

im hating love right now.

o_o

i turn 21 on tuesday. its sort of surreal. i feel like i turned 20 a couple days ago. the years are going by so fast. im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing. it all seems pretty good right now though. ive got a job that i love. im living in a place that i never want to leave. ive got wonderful people in my life. i do feel, however, that after moving to oregon weve lost so many of our friends. i guess thats what happens when you move 200 miles away. anyway, life is still rocking balls. as always. i always rock balls.


thats what she said...?

that one definitely doesnt count.

Current Music: pantherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

quick update: were in our new five bedroom house. im a shift leader at jamba juice and im finally making bank. charlene can lick my ass. i love life. goodnight!

life is jazz.

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